To Play or Not to Play that is the question. Now tell me the answer!

So for those who do not know, I used to/still play volleyball. I used to love playing and competing and practices so much! I started playing of course because of my older sister Destiny (I sometimes like to follow in her footsteps even though my feet are about half as big as hers are). I started in 6th grade and as the years went by I started to not enjoy as I once did. But it was weird because my volleyball appreciation and enjoyment would vary from year to year and sometimes from practices to practices! It has been apart of my life for the past 10 years or so and has taught me all the good things like teamwork and friendship and blah blah. I played all the way up to my senior year in high school and despite the encourage meant from my parents and coaches I decided not to play club that year and to not try and play volleyball in college. The mixed feelings I had toward the sport drove me to make a choose that I do not think that I regret but just wished that I would have thought about a little more. My parents were less than thrilled with my decision but when it came down to it I think that they understood. well at least I hope they did. So fast forward to freshman year in college at the U of A. I did not know many people here because not one of my friends from high school wanted to join me as a wildcat but being the "outgoing" person that I am, I managed to scramble up a few friends when I found out about the club volleyball team. I enjoyed it that year but as the years went by I started to get discouraged again and frustrated with practice. Last year was suppose to be my last year playing but due to my indecisive ways I changed my major (but that's a whole new issue that could be discussed later). This past year was, in a like for a better word, bad due to my negative attitude and unwillingness to be apart of a team. It did get better at the end but I felt no desire to do anything which was unfair to my teammates. I did not want my last year of playing ball to be like that. So this year I have a choice to play or not to play. I want my last year of playing to be spectacular but I also do not want my volleyball attitude to get the best of me like it did this past year. There are many different reasons why I would play and many different reasons why I would not play. So what it comes down to is that I really don't know what I want/should do!!! I want to make this last year of college THE BEST year of school ever! And right now I am trying to decide how to make that goal come true . . . . .

SWEET!!!

So after much contemplation, consideration and deliberation (all these words are synonyms of each other in case there was some confusion) I have decided to start and hopefully continue a blog!!! Thanks to and also inspired by my older sister Destiny Long ooohh wait sorry Destiny Alfonso, I have been sucked into the blog world. I think doing this whole blogging thingy will help me to express myself in anyway that I want to! It's also a stress releaser from the everyday trials of my life that's filled with being a college student, working and trying to stay physically fit. Along with all the mandatory parties I have to attend and those late night runs to McDonalds, it seems like I have my plate full of delicious desserts and I just had a 5 course meal. But like they say there's always room for dessert. Well actually the saying goes there's always room for Jello but you get the idea. My newly inspired knack for writing has seem to make me happy which is kind of strange since for the longest time I used to hate it. I think it might have been my Women's study class that I took this summer that caused me to start to like writing. Or maybe it was that book I read by Chelsea Handler called My Horizontal Life that did it. HAHA that book was funny. Well anyways I don't really know what it was but I'm glad I found something that I kind of maybe sort of enjoy doing! Even if no one ever comes to read my blogs ( i bet my sister will always!) I won't mind because this blog is really for me to express my thoughts and feelings and ideas! Don't get me wrong I would love everyone to read and comment but hey you know I wont get butt-hurt if I don't! Ok well i guess this is my very fist blog entry! Yeah alright awesome!